There are times when everything seems to be so confusing,when situations seem to be over lapping each other,complicated,very hard to understand and solutions don’t seem to come easy.
You decide to pray about it for a quick answer from God..a light at the end of the tunnel to give you some sort of way forward. When it seems everyone is gone and you are alone,the darkness seems to engulf you more than the light. You cry every night,tears soak into your pillow like drops of heavy rain. When loneliness is the only company you could ever have,the voices in your head are the only friends that can talk to you,you see no hope for a tomorrow,no peace for a Heart so broken.
Yet every prayer seems to stop mid way through to heaven,you feel God has abandoned you,he doesn’t want to help you,he has turned a deaf ear,you feel the need to curse him and let him know about your frustration but you are scared he will strike you down immediately after that blasphemous moment.
Everyday seems like another drag slowly leading you to the pits of hell,you go through it like a zombie,life goes by you and wouldn’t care any less.
When You are hurt by People like me,People you once cared for and loved but are now strangers,when your heart aches for someone else’s touch,for strength,compassion and Freedom from this prison you have created for yourself. Hot tears of anger flow down your cheeks,you can not feel the sadness,you feel numb from the pain.
Sometimes,that is just life,it will kick you in the back,chew you up and spit you out like trash but You have to have Faith,believe that every time something bad happens,when friends seem like strangers,when home seems like the only place you don’t belong,Hope,be strong,look at it as another step to get you closer to what you are working hard for because as it is always Darkest before Dawn,surely that too will pass in the end and You will see your Light at the end of the Tunnel.