When I was a lil girl, all I wanted to do was play with my dog, listen to music, ride the bike and go swimming in the lake, hated chores (still do). I was a bit of a loner, I strangely preferred being up on a tree reading a book or looking for strange fruits around my Grandpa’s land to playing around with kids and the other thing is I was just caught in the middle; everyone was either older than me or just younger than me and it always made it hard for me to connect with them.
This made me learn how to appreciate my own company, I do not actually need someone else for me to enjoy myself, I can take myself out (food mainly I love food, I strangely cannot stand bars or clubs any more and anything too noisy plus crowded) and not be bothered that I am alone, it might seem sad to you but once in a while you need to do things for yourself, appreciate yourself and learn to depend more on yourself.
Along the way when I became a teenager, all I wanted to do was grow up, be cooperate, drive cars, live alone, sing for the world, act and write whatever I want to do, I mean that’s what I thought growing up meant.
Fast forward a couple of years ahead and I am here seated on this couch typing something I am not sure about because growing up is not like how the movies show it to be, they build this whole fantastic image that makes everyone want to rush and skip stages just to be grown.
Growing up is a lot of work, responsibility, faith and dedication to whatever road you chose for yourself. Along the way, a lot of things happen to you, when in high school, you realize that there is more to life than obsessing over a certain male in your class and the world actually does not revolve around you and your fantasies (in my case that is). At the end of it, you wish you had enjoyed yourself more and instead of always having your nose stuck in a book, then during your “vacation,” you try so hard to shed the image of a young tomboy to that of a lady finding her way into the outside world.
When you get into university, you think in layman terms that “You have arrived…” LOL. When I look back at my university years, I wish I had not locked myself in a shell just because people around me judged me and ostracized me for trying to do me, but then again I had so much fun at campus even if some of the things got me into trouble (a lot of trouble), I would never give up that experience for anything because it has made me the woman I am now.
This woman that I am now is stronger, beautiful, confident, determined, ambitious, prayerful, comfortable with who she is and even more determined to get more out of her life than the girl she was years ago.
I went through every awkward stage of my life and Lord knows most of them were embarrassing but heck don’t rush to grow up yet if you are still a lil girl, enjoy every bit of being young now as much as you can so that when you grow up, you are ready to just transcend into that stage of your life because you don’t want to be that adult with the Peter Pan Syndrome.