There was thunder tearing through my heart, I could fill the sharpness of it as every fiber of my being cried out to be heard. “You have to walk away.”
I couldn’t do it, somehow beyond my better judgment and understanding my heart had dug a deeper hole.
I glowed like the sun was shining directly onto me with all the warmth in the world and never ceased to float on the highest of clouds. There was a never ending joy through every encounter that breezed by.
I could feel myself falling deeper into the abyss of my own doing, the darkness grabbing at me with a force from every directions.
“What have I done?”
I could have let it go when it was still easy for me to do, now I am entangled deeper and deeper into what does not seem to let me go.
Entrenched within my soul beyond the pleasures of my bosom, your hands reached deeper than my lips and took my soul with them.
They hungrily clenched my soul no matter how hard I grabbed for it and now I fight a battle that leaves me breathless with each passing day.
“How did I get here?”
I hunger for you more than before, you have become an addiction I cannot throw away; a cigarette that gives me life even when the world sees no sense. You with your nonchalant ways have beguiled me and now you dangle your love at me like a piece of meat yet when I run towards it you suddenly speed away into the darkness.
The sweet words you always whispered to me in the dark, the warm touches on my skin have now become cold nights of whimpers. I never knew the darkness would be so cruel till I became but a simple forgettable memory to your mind.
There it is, the pain again when I see you smiling because that other person has your attention now. They are the center of your universe now! I remember when I was your moon, when I shone bright in the dark of the night and your eyes glowed at me with so much eagerness.
When my presence brought you quivers of eagerness.
I now look out for you, seek out your precious eyes just to show you I am still the same one. Did something go wrong with me along the way for you to not want me the same? Do you not see my pain when I angle for a kiss and you turn your face away because the passion belongs to the other person now?
When did you become blind to my need for your attention?
It was all a fleeting lie.